Scared but fighting
I have been reading this forum for a while. I have stage 4 bowel cancer diagnosed in May. I have 3 kids and am not letting this thing have me without a fight. Here's my thoughts
At night when darkness falls and sleep seems so hard to find,
Thoughts creep into my head and whisper words I don't want to hear
Deep breaths, relaxation exercises, visualisation of my secret, safe place helps to take me away from the constant questions I cannot answer.
Cancer, a horrible word, a frightening reality. All that this disease brings. Different for everyone, no rules, no set path. Everyone of us individual, special, unique and that matters.
We need to remember our individuality, how special and unique we are. We are still important people with lives to lead, families and friendships to be part of, a lots of things still to do.
So when the darkness comes, and it will and does, remember the special moments, the daily treasures, the magic of the day you have just had and look forwards to tomorrow.
Don't let cancer have more time than it already takes. Live life, enjoy small things, spend time with loved ones, enjoy what nature is doing and fight.
No one knows what each of our unique, individual bodies is capable of. Hold onto that, believe you can win and reach for the future.
Thanks to all who are part of the forum, it means a lot to know you are all out there and so supportive or each other. It's certainly helping me.