Alternate Reality with BC
Has any BC patients experienced at any particular time frame of their journey that they enter an alternate reality in their life. That is, now about six months after diagnosis, through chemotherapy and at the surgical intervention phase that your thought process and priorities change.
I feel that I am someone looking into another person's life, surgery, uncertainty about life shortening disease, and concerns about will your partner be all right if you are not there and have you made sufficient financial provision to ensure that at least they are not financially bereft and that the mortgage is paid off and they have some money as a fall back after your death.
I get up go to work, drive to work and deal with everything as if nothing has changed. I think the penny has finally dropped that I have a life threatening condition and although it is a bitter pill to swallow, am I wrong not to be in a state of blind panic. I really just don't know but perhaps I am kidding myself on that I hope and pray that somehow I may come through this weird experience .
I have started reading mindfulness books and booking retreat before surgery, as I think I will need to mentally prepare myself for the next phase of this journey.
Best wishes all