Hi I'm new to the forum.
Diagnosed this week with colon cancer during first routine colonoscopy. Apparently a circumferential tumour of the sigmoid colon. Over a long period of time have passed off occasional blood in stools as piles as I have suffered with them in the past. Went to doctors last year and he said there was nothing to worry about.
I have been told that I will get some feedback tomorrow on the results of the colonoscopy, a scan and blood tests I had on the same day. I've already been told I will need an operation. I'm beside myself with worry that they will tell me the cancer is advanced and would have had a better prognosis if caught earlier. I blame myself entirely for this.
Since being told I have cut myself and wont talk to my wife about this. We haven't told the kids until I| know more. I'm convinced I'm going to die sooner than later. Spent the last few days on the internet looking up anything to do with cancer e.g. survival rates, people who have died of colon cancer etc - all negative and morbid stuff.
I know I am wallowing but can't stop myself. Can't sleep (even with sleeping pills) not hungry and totally consumed in my own self pity.