Head's a bit fuzzy, trying to come to terms with it.
I was diagnosed with Crohns Disease in early 2008 and have been taking azathioprine to manage and never had any surgery for my Crohns luckily. Had been having what I would describe as bad reflux problems for last year and was originally told duodenal ulcer. After three severe episodes with one taking me into hospital, lots of tests followed. To be brief......1) I had a MRI scan in 2008 that showed I had gallstones but two consultants missed this until a third found the scan just before Christmas 2017. 2) I have had 2 x MRI, 1 x CT and blood tests. 3) Hospital found an abnormality on my liver less than 1cm in size and suspect it to be a tumour. 4) Following a colonoscopy in late February 2018, a suspicious area was found which they think is cancerous so they want it out. 5) I am booked in for 16th April 2018 for bowel resection surgery.
I am a 48 year old family man, with partner of 11 years, four kids with two at home, my beloved dog, business owner, have become a very keen grower of vegetables, loves sport and am a very low maintenance, happy, family guy. My world seems to have been turned upside down now and although I believe I know exactly what is going on, I keep getting 'fuzzy head' moments where I sit and ponder my life away.......wonder if this is it for me?
I plan to keep working until the Thursday before my Monday operation, then I have to take the necessary bowel preparation liquid to be ready. I have made up my 'go bag' already, books, magazines, DAB personal radio, ipad etc...etc... so you would read this and think "this guy seems focused and ready".........I am so not. I have watched post operation videos to see how the land lies, looked at diets, I know I am going to be off work for four weeks, so from the outside I am prepared and ready. On the inside I am worried sick.
That's me, don't think I've missed anything, I hope that all of you have a great and successful surgery and recovery and hopefully I will be joining you