Dont know what to make of this
Hello havnt been on for a while keep popping in now and again trying to lead a bit of a normal life.
Well Dave had his lung op 2wks ago fairly straight forward over night stay back to ' normal ' in few days 7mm wedge removed with clear margins still waiting for histology results so still dont know 100% if it was the dreaded 'c'
Today had 3mth check with onc he was supprised to see us due to Dave only just having his lung op anyhow he said that because he's had an op then it probably is cancer but nothing had come back from the lung surgeon yet! . Anyhow I then asked if he can fill a form in for us so that we can get a grant from the the Macmillan cancer support and becos his diagnosis was more than 6mths ago needed a Dr to fill in, he ok then went on to say shall I be pessimistic and smiled he then went on to say my job is to keep you alive as long as possible he also said that he doesn't want to go down the chemo route 'just yer ' because it didnt work the last time! He wants to see how thing's go first becos he might want to use it in the future! He then filled the form out he'd written " Dave is aware of his prognosis and at present cancer free but probably have recurrence he has had numerous operations and is suffering from stress and anxiety " when we came out Dave was a bit of a wreck saying he told me that I was dying I tried to reassure him that is not what he said he was saying that we all are dying if you think about it from the day we are born but he wudnt listen just kept saying no he said I was dying. Thing is Dave is suffering mentally due to losing his job waiting for results waiting for the tribunal due to him getting sacked in January after 29yrs with same company he's had counselling he's on higher dose of anti depression he's stuck in a rut wish I'd never asked for the bloody form to be filled in physically he's great mentally he's not
Thanks for taking the time to read this needed to tell someone