I feel lost, terrified and out of control
I did my Scottish bowel cancer screening test last month which came back positive.
Yesterday the colonoscopy showed a tumour in my bowel. They took a biopsy And bloods and I've got a ct scan and mri to come in the next couple of weeks.
I've been in tears much of the past 24 hours.
What I'm understanding is that basically they found something yesterday. The biopsy will say if it's cancerous. I've an mri scan and ct scan to be done. Only once they've got all the results will they decide on a course of action. As long as all done within next 2 weeks i should know more on Fri 31st ... it seems like a lifetime away.
So many thoughts going round in my head. How long has it been there, how fast do they grow. Will it have spread. I don't smoke, drink in very small amounts and eat healthy high fibre, low processed food diet.
I'm sitting here in tears again. I want to be normal and just get I with things but just feeling so upset. Feel stupid being so upset and completely useless and unable to control my body or emotions.