Feeling frustrated/ angry / useless /confused by
Don't really know much more from surgery follow up ,apart from stage 3 cancer T4N1 which doesn't mean much to me . Got oncology next week where will find out more about treatment etc. Will have a CT scan 1st to check other areas ( although I did have CT post op in October that confirmed no spread to liver or lungs ) then after chemo another colonoscopy to remove the other non cancer polyps that were found on original colonoscopy and check the rest of the bowel that they couldn't check last time as tumour was in was blocking at sigmoid to go any further and to check it all.
19 lympth nodes removed and cancer found in 4 that was about to go though the lining of bowel into other parts as was pushing ( so I'm feeling grateful right now it was caught when it was ) but still confused and scared about what's ahead .
My surgeon also mention about being genetic and to get my siblings to get checked , has anyone else had this request ?
I'm scared and angry with it all now, surgery I could deal with but all the rest is a kick in the teeth and I feel like no one quite understands 😠😫♥️ I'm normally very positive and have been so far but this is taking over my thoughts and emotions 😓