A moan and a wobble.....
I have been holding it together so well. And today I feel like it's all unravelling. It's been 6 months of treatment, operations is in 15 days. Today several things have added up to a serious wobble.
I have had to admit I won't be back at work for at least 6 months.
I've had to hand over some voluntary responsibilities which I love.
Both these things can carry in without me, which makes me pleased and gutted all at once.
I am arranging childcare and calling in favours all over the show.
My Consultant has put a question mark on the way forward I was given last week by other consultant and mentioned "this is an unusual case" which threw me as I thought I was fairly standard.
I have also been mourning my fertility.
Sorry....just needed to splurge. I know it's ok to fall apart but it doesn't feel nice.
Right...Off to eat dinner and splurge on the hubster and count my blessings....probably with wine!