Hello you lovely lot.
I haven’t posted in a while but I pop in every now and then to keep an eye on you all.
I’ve spent all this week sitting indoors, watching tv, eating cake and only leaving the house to collect the kids. I hate scanxiety - it must be the worst of feelings - and the only way I can deal with it is to shut myself away.
I went to see my lovely oncologist today to get my latest results. Everything is still good and my scan was completely clear.
That now takes me to 2 years of clear scans.
I spoke to him about various things and he uttered the words - ‘it’s unlikely to come back’. I’m obviously trying not to focus on this too much but, really, how could I not smile a little bit.
He’s still going to scan me again in 3 months and is also going to send me for counselling. I think my way of dealing with cancer has been to never admit to myself I’ve been unwell and to bury my head in the sand. I think it’s now time to admit to myself that talking to someone may well be helpful and the best way forward.
Much love to you all