Meeting with my Oncologist
So I've not actually seen my oncologist since my diagnosis. My last consultation was with another oncologist and was very much 'you're coping well so far, let's continue'. I didn't get a physical examination or anything.
Anyway, last time I saw my Oncologist it was obviously very doom and gloom, he could feel the "bobble" of tumours in my pelvis that were making me inoperable and incurable and was very much of the opinion things won't end well. (There were about 4 joined together)
He nearly fell off his chair when i walked into his office! He couldn't believe how well I looked. Nor could he believe how well I'm tolerating the Folfiri with no side effects. He was impressed with my weight gain as well and the fact I have zero pain or symptoms of my cancer. He then examined me and his words which will forever be engraved in my memory were "I don't normally like to say too much without CT scans, but I'm astonished to say I can no longer feel any of your bobbles"! He said I'm truly a fighter and he's really hoping my inoperable status will change one day. I still have a very long way to go, I'm not even half way, and I'm very aware things can change very quickly in the world of Stage 4 Inoperable Bowel Cancer, but for now, I feel like my body and the chemo is doing just what it needs to and I'll take this with open arms! It was so nice to have a joke and a laugh with an oncologist and walk out with my head held high feeling positive! I will keep on keeping on! And it goes to prove, statistics are just that. Numbers. Paper. Not real life. I have no idea what the rest of my cancer is doing (diagnosed with a descending colon tumour, bobble of 4 tumors in pelvis, extensive peri mets, 3 liver mets and 13 nodules on both lungs!) but I know we all need to have faith in the strength of our minds and bodies. They are stronger than stats. And also, despite my diagnosis I have the best quality of life at the moment. Stay strong!