Expecting things to go back to normal
I was diagnosed with stage 3 bowel cancer in April this year. I had emergency surgery to remove my tumour and had 4 rounds of capox chemo. A lot of people have praised me for being so positive during my sickness. I have two children so I tried to stay as up beat as I could but I was very sick with the chemo. I finished my chemo at the end of august and I’ve just recently went back to work 2 weeks ago. I didn’t get any phased return and to be honest I kind of feel like everyone thinks things should be back to normal now. I get very tired and I have bad numbness in my feet. I am now worried I’ve rushed back but I don’t feel like I can come out on the sick again. I am very much a people pleaser and put on my smile as soon as I walk out the door. I hate to let anyone down. I am sorry for ranting or moaning I just hope that there is someone out there who understands what I am going through and can give me some advise? Does anyone feel emotionally like they have a delayed reaction? I find myself sitting thinking back over this year wondering did that all really happen?